hello all
I am writing on a nice summer night in June...I liek these nights...so relxing, aint got shit to do.
I've began my regular summer training after a sort of "lay -lowZ" period. So far it has been sprint drills, sprinting, throwing, cardio via basketball, and lifting. My lifting this whole summer will be ased on high repetitions as I am trying to add a different dimension fo strength. As I am writing right no wmy body is ACHING from the expectionally hard day I put in today. Im just afew hours I will be doing alegs workout and will be destroyed even more. I will be heading out the 21st to SMU for a 3 day training camp.
Tbone has been sucking ass. Mainly becuase Im a total headcase. I know for an absolute FACT my potential is world-class. No doubt...I know it, my teachers know it, my colleagues know it, professional players Ive played for know this...im jsut holding my self back mentally...I have called ateacher in north texas who is good with discussing these things so I will go up there during my SMU training camp to see her and see whats going on. I know for a fasct I have what it takes...i just need to break abrrier mentally...im workin on it. As of now, it is directl affecting the physical aspects of my playign such as embouchere. It's like what one of my teachers told me..."if you told Michael Jordan of every complexity that happens when he dunks a ball, then he would have never dunked the ball again"...thats kind of what im going through. A teacher fromt he past exposed me to all the complexities of playing abrass instrument and broke my playign down physically and my analytical nature took it for the worse...im too analytical of everything...it freezes the nature of playing an instrument. I have to overcome myself. Meanwhile, my enjoyment of music still persists. I am looking forward to the free cocnerts the Houston Symphony offers every year. I have been goign to these evry summer and its kind of become atradtition for me...none of my freidns truly enjoy classical cocnerts so I go by myself...its ok...
Time to sleep, wake-up, and bust my ass tomorrow training wise and bonin wise.
Until next time
JL
