Well, the school year is in full swing and with it comes back a big chunk of my day that I so easily let go of during the summer months :)
When you combine teaching with a self-mandating need to practice and time in the gym, the day fills very quickly sunrise to sundown (and then some).
Teaching lessons/masterclasses non-stop for hours a day can have its rewards but it will take its toll on anyone (which is why I have gained such a high respect for the men and women who put themselves in that situation all day).
Although it is nice to be working again after a nice summer break (and serving society through sharing music), I have already begun to miss the idle moments that my brain enjoyed so much during the still and ever so slow days of summer. Lying down on my bedroom floor, hands behind my head, eyes closed, as I let my mind wander is something I miss very much and I will have to make it a priority during my weekends (despite my heavy appetite for football at the moment!).
So I think this constant yearn to be industrial all the time isn't quite what it is cut out to be. People need recess and they need it often (several times a day, I feel). Without my brain time to wander and to wonder, i've noticed that less of my brain is used on a daily basis and it literally feels like it has a lack of exercise (again, despite a hectic day).
I also think I've noticed this in other people as well. I know plenty of brilliant people, sharp witted people, who seem to have been victim to their day-to-day. I feel like what I am trying to point out here is widely recognized as a struggle with many of the 9 to 5 crowd, but my realization of it is just now hitting as my day has become a bit crowded.
HA, for one, my writing isn't quite what it used to be! I have looked back on what I have written in the past, and it seems to me that a younger, and even more immature me could communicate more clearly and thoroughly than I can now. Well, I will consider that it is now 12:38 am, and maybe my brain just isnt good at this time of day but still, it does bother me that it used to seem a bit easier to punch out what I am thinking on the keyboard.
So, what to do...
-well, one thing I will carry on from summer is the habit of reading often.
-Also, I will give myself more days off of work
-I will embrace my weekend (when not practicing or exercising) and make sure that I give my brain ample time to sit in silence and to let itself go wherever it may choose!
-And I will try to write more. This blog is called the 'loose' filter and it shall be exactly that...to ensure that I punch out what I am thinking and to do it freely and with much fervor!
I am truly happy to be passionate about two things in life...music and sports. My day evolves around them....everyday. I am one who will encourage you to be passionate about what you do but I must re-think the idea that it should consume your every breath. In fact, brief time away from it, I feel, helps cultivate it. So embrace your need to recess and answer to it often. it is essential.
